messages or much of whatsap, and I just found it. Sent 2 days ago, and since I've not been in a "peopling" mode, I figured I give all the general bullshitt a miss.... Bad part is, I was expecting new information for my Stories behind the Stars research, so I figured, since today I was going to do a bit more research, I better check email......
It was from my sister-in-law, and I will post both her mail and my answer, fully aware that it will make me come off a first class btch, but I'm done catering to people who give me more grief than happy.... Life's too short! Think about how many people are in your life that zap your energy, leaving too little time and energy for the people who make you happy..... Don't take for granted who you have in your corner that give you the freedom to be yourself, and are your rock when you need them to be. No score being kept, just mutual taking care of eachother,. Mentally and physically making sure the other is as good as they can be... Treasure them, and lose the people that steal your energy and joy..... Not saying this is the right way to do it, but maybe, if I had made my point before this, it would have been a little more tactful..... maybe not, but do yourself a favor, assess the people that take away your happy make you walk on eggshells to keep the peace and put you on edge, and consider limiting your time with them...... Even if it IS family.
Take stock of whether they give you as much or more "happy" feels than trepadation, and weigh the benefits of how much time you spend with them. Babysteps for sure, because it's an uncomfortable process, but do take them, before you realise you spend more time with people taking space in your head, than with the person(s) that has your heart.
So, the last of the family "drama" before starting that new chapter on this trip I didn't sign up for.
My answer was neither short, nor as sweet, as it probably should have been, but it IS the way I feel.....
To Jan
no, actually Jan, I wouldn't expect ANYTHING, and I wouldn't have even asked.
I have been trying to feel different, but honestly, losing Mike made me realise that life is too short to try and "play nice" with people who couldn't give less of a shit about the man who is my soulmate, my everything, when he was alive. If that is not the way everybody felt, you should have contacted us sooner. Kim had our address, you read my blog and knew to contact me when it suited you.....
Don't forget to hug that loved one, severely!!
Love and hugs,
Pauli